Monday, January 26, 2009

Just before I go...

...a few images of what i'm leaving behind:


those Themida triandra grasslands at the foot of the railway ridge,

(let's have a closer look at that grass. It's so beautiful at the moment and flowering lustily)

a bit more grass, the factory, and behind that a burning house in Maidestone...


the railway ridge, with new sleepers awaiting implacement
and

होर्से. Horse.

I'm getting closer to leaving. Just hoping the mechanics can figure out what is wrong with the car. Otherwise it's going to be a bit scary driving over the Nulabor waiting for it to explode. Or to be slightly less dramatic - waiting for it to stop.


At the moment, I'm putting things in boxes and moving them from the kitchen to the hall, outside for the garage sale, back inside into the hall, repacking them into other boxes and putting them into the kitchen...what the heck am i doing?


Cleaning is so slow. But it's a really good feeling to be chucking stuff out. Cleansing or purging. So far I have managed to put out 2 large green bins of almost purely sharp white printer paper from uni work.


For the duration of the course that's about 1 bin per year.


If you calculated that for all the students who went through the landscape architecture course with me at RMIT, with an atrition rate of approximately 20 students per year, that'd about 240 bins per degree/year...I mean for every degree completed, over the four years.



If you counted all the students entering the course while we were going through, that'd be about 360 bins per degree roatation,
ie over 4 years.


Each bin probably weighs half a tonne which gives a rough total of 180 tonnes of paper per design course year, and that's just landscape architecture, just at rmit. That's a fuckofalotof trees being cut down to produce environmentally sensitive
designers for the future!

If we stopped running design courses we'd have a lot less environmental disasters to repair and a lot more old growth forests,


and I'd get a lot more sleep.

In fact, wouldn't the world be a better place if we all slept just a few hours more each day.

Just think about it.


I think someone took exception to my sign. With a big stick.

They Know We're Coming

So the team to watch in the future is obvoiously Carlton - this is a method being employed beyond the normal pre-season training regime. Just what are they doing to their players in there? And how long is it going to take?

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Another trip to the beach.

Poor old blowies, they're the fish no-one loves. But they're so cute!


Looking back up towards Melbourne from Williamstown. A ship heading up the Yarra from the right.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Hey ho beach!

I was starting to get that nervous feeling that someone might look at me, or worse still stop and talk to me and I knew it was time to get out of the house for at least a day. So me and the mutt went for a train ride down to Williamstown beach. The beach, the beach, ho! I was dying for the beach. And it was even better than I remembered. More water, more birds, more rocks, more bird shit on the rocks, more yachts on the horizon. (Phone camera couldn’t get these: hundreds of full spinnakers on the horizon. It was a surprise of canvas.)

And I thought, I’ve got this funny feeling that I’m going to find something really precious down here. I walked and waded and jumped from rock to rock, feeling the basalt under my thick soles. Little Yoshi followed along, leaping fearlessly from rock to rock, slipping into the water once or twice and enjoying a swim, sniffing around and chasing seagulls.

It was so idyllic. So lovely. So salty. So...and the tears came to my eyes, and I thought,
-Why am I in not in Albany? What am I doing here? I need to go home.
-How can I possibly think about going home, it's far too difficult. I’ve got a course to finish, I’ve got stuff to do, a house and garden to look after, I’ve got responsibilities and Stuff!
-Dammit, I’m going home!
So we played a bit more. We had a grand old time.
And I felt the best I have felt in so long. I felt so elated to be planning an adventure. We caught the train from the cutest station on the greater metropolitan suburban rail network and went back to good ole Sunshine to start packing and planning.
We’ll be gone by the end of next week. Away across the Nulabor.
Goodbye dirty old Melbourne!
Hey ho Albany!
Hey ho beach!
Just kidding: this is stinky old Footscray of course.


that is a silly game.

Saturday, January 10, 2009

40523! and only 2 hours...

Thursday, January 8, 2009

high score today 28877. i keep getting blown up just as i get to mission 5.

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

50 minutes, high score 24540.
another day with nothing to say.

what i can't decide is whether to take a break or just keep plugging
45 minutes, top score 296305 - stage 5!
beware battletank dessert mission.

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

DOCTOR ZHIVAGO
Bastards and Boundary Riders

I've just watched Dr Zhivago - which is the first film i remember ever going to, at the Esperance drive-in. However, not much of it was familiar.

Got me thinking about the other side of our genetic exchange theorizing, and asking what is the benefit of exchange with the outsider from the man’s perspective?

Sarah has posited that aboriginal groups might have lent their women to men passing through to improve genetic diversity, for the benefit of the society doing the lending and getting the addition genes to add to the pool. And then there is the attraction that so many of we women feel towards these men passing through, still now in our diverse social groups, without the settled tribal connections. What does this mean, if we say that the kind of groupings that we are part of now are not new, unusual or exclusively contemporary?

We continue to be attracted to boundary riding men: adventurers, sailors with a woman in every port, bastards, unfaithful men, men who are exciting and transitory... The main traits these men seem to have in common are
- The ability to instill passion and devotion
- Self confidence
- Risk-taking behaviours
- A desire to keep moving
- Strong male bonds to groups such as gangs and outlaw groups, soldiers and sailors, bohos: all groups of men at the edges of the social order.

I'm not going to directly address the issue of risk-taking behaviour. I'll have a think about that one.

What this other side of the story might be is simply this: that these men have a handful of women to help them survive when times get hard. Such women are devoted when we fall in love with these men. The condition of obsession/devotion (or a loving connection,) allows us to open our hearts and legs at a moment’s notice when the conquering hero returns from many years' absence, and we also open welcoming and protective arms to these returning soldiers (etc). Odysseus.

In the movie the good doctor has a wife and family that he loves in a familial way. He also has a passionate and faithful mistress, who is herself attracted to dangerous types. In the midst of the socialist revolution times got pretty tough, and his wife disappeared, but he was able to find shelter to his mistress: Lara. After an interminable trudge through snow and icey tundra escaping from the war, he finds an empty home...but he goes on to find an available and loving mistress still where he left her last. She nurses him back to health and gives him back a sense of reality, albeit slightly skewed. (And another thing, perhaps a later therory: how often is it that the story runs that the mistress is the one who suffers his post-conflict stress? Not so rarely, huh? So she could be seen, in her slightly edged place in society, as a staging ground in his return to society as a normal functioning member.)

He goes off to war, and when he "returns" he has more than one home to return to, so if one of these homes is destroyed by the war in which he fights (or doctors in this case) then there is a better chance that there will be another one that does survive. On his return he can be fed and nursed back to health in this other home.
Potentially in times of low food supplies he can be fed by more than one woman/family.

Reciprocally, he is cunning, ingenious, resourceful and shrewd. Sometimes he is sly and deceitful, but these are all useful survival techniques, that make him an interesting and sometimes revered man to other men. (In this respect the film is not true to type – Dr Z. is far too moral to be a true outsider in the sense I’m talking about here. Though he does have his devotees.)

His other benefit is that he is providing a safe parent for his offspring: the women he chooses are most probably passionate, strong women... They are capable of transferring their devotion from him to their children – especially as the loving mother desires evidence of his existence. The children help to fill the import place, reserved for him, in their mothers' hearts when he is not around.

The ability to form strong male bonds is another important trait that this man possesses.In his wanderings he makes many and varied social connections with different types of men who can be called upon for assistance and safe passage in times of hardship, times of escape, and when he needs to hide. If he is entertaining and good company, amusing and a socially capable male, and if he commands respect, then other men will look out for him and protect him... If he forms strong social networks, then he commands reciprocal favours.

All this he can use to the benefit of his families, calling on favours in diverse and separate places, in order to provide safe passage if needed. He gives and takes, therefore proving the truth of human survival: diverse social networks maintain diversity of genetics and survival of the fittest – the fittest individuals, but more importantly the fittest social groups. Human survival is about group survival: family groups and community scale groups and therefore species survival...Individaul survival is a outcome of the success of the group.

Conversely it is too often these good points don't play out and they are hopeless bastards we're better off without. But if you've got one, then my proposition might allow you to comfort yourself with the thought that from an evolutionary perspective the exciting and risky man is tempting, desirable, and a suprisingly good bet.

Footscray Markets

A few shots from the Footscray Markets today. It's a bright sunshiny day, hence the sharp colour.
These are from the rooftop parking.
Looking towards the Westgate,


and down into the fruit and vegetable laneway entrance.



gotta love footscray!

Sunday, January 4, 2009

Back to Sunshine

This is not far out of Geelong. Check out the weird cloud. This next photo is coming back into Sunshine:

Another day of hanging out, on the Yarra with a bunch of happy campers, and now I'm back home. So I guess it's time to start thinking about the future: that'll be about 6 months long.
Plans: get a job, meet Bill Mollison, build a windmill on top of the Footscray Markets.

The second one is probably easy in a physical sense, but as far as process goes, there's a lot of me going on there. You've gotta have a plan, a system, a reason. Like, even if your guru lived next door, how would you prepare to meet him? And just because he's old might not be reason enough. Personally I find the whole idea of having a guru totally ridiculous, but I've got one, so somehow I have to go with myself on this one. Praps it's like the sport shoes: don't think about it too much first. (Lucky it wasn't me working on the Nike ad campaign, it would've ended up something like this: don't think about it too much, because you know, sometimes it's better if you don't go into all the detatils and fall over yourself in self disabusement, like, take a risk, don't caution yourself on this, ok?)
The job and the windmill have a more intimate connection. I'm hoping the former will lead to the later. Or I'm proposing the latter in hopes of attaining the job.

It's a fantastic view from up there. I might go have another look tomorrow. No, hang on, I've already got a thing to do tomorrow, and I'm on a no more than one thing to do per day week. So it'll have to be Wednesday. That's currently a thing-free day.

Any other plans?

Oh yeah, but I aint talking about stuff that doesn't want to be talked about. Because some things have a very precarious connection to materiality, and talking about them sucks all their existing energy out. They might float off like grey balloons into black space, or they might get wrecked. Don't let the words out or those kind of thing just fade away to nothing, or worse still fester away like small festering insects, and you have to create a whole new energy field for them, and build it up all over again before they can happen. I'm not into that so I have to keep these little thing-plans under my hat. You gotta be real careful with stuff like that.

"Plans that either come to naught or half a page of scribbled lines" keeps going around in my brain. I wonder where that comes from. I am haunted by these little things. TS Elliot? It scans a bit like "I am moved by fancies that are curled around these images and cling/ the notion of some infinitely gentle, infinitely suffering thing"

What is that?

Wait, I'll go look.

It's #IV of the Preludes, and it goes like this:

His soul stretched tight across the skies

That fade behind a city block,

Or trampled by insistent feet

At four and five and six o'clock:

And short square fingers stuffing pipes,

And evening newspapers, and eyes

Assured of certain certainties,

The conscience of a blackened street

Impatient to assume the world.

-

I am moved by fancies that are curled

Around these images, and cling:

The notion of some infinitely gentle

Infinitely suffering thing.

-

Wipe your hand across your mouth, and
laugh:

The worlds revolve like ancient women

Gathering fuel in vacant lots.

Friday, January 2, 2009

Great Ocean Road

Driving back from Apollo Bay along the Great Ocean Road, Victoria, New Years Day 2009. I took a few of these videos, but even this little one took about 2 hours to upload. It's fun trying to drive on an unfamiliar windy cliff-edged road on a wet day when everyone else is out driving too, and videoing at the same time. After a few rough patches I gave up. Hope this gives you some sense of the journey.





Driving out through the Otways National Park, New Year's Day. Beautiful!
Just one night by the sea reminded me how far I am from my spiritual home. But unfortunately I get the strong feeling that I've got a lot of city time left. That's the problem with believing that I have to "do something" in my life! But in time, I believe it will be worthwhile.

Wallaby



Just had an overnight stay in Blanket Bay. This was hangin out in the bush near the camping grounds. Looks just like one of those original drawings of the English explorers. Fat with a yellow front like it'd been lying in a mass of very pollen-laden flowers.